Sunday, July 31, 2005
THE BIKE DRIVES!
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my bike works! i tore off down the rd with no front fairing (which means no lights) the side covers off, and everything finger tight but IT WORKS!!!! i nearly wrecked on the back side of the house (the rd behind my house - phase 2 of the subdivision) the front tire is prob slack, plus i hadn't ridden in years, so i couldn't turn :o but yea it works. and it's fairly smooth :) just a hair bit of hesitation, but it could be from 3 yr old gas :o lol anyways i'm stoke about it working.
so to celebrate, i cut the front yard :P yea now that's done. i figgered if i was already greesy and sweaty, might as well do yard work too :P heh so yea, i'm gonna cool off now, maybe find some food and might even add more later :P
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my bike works! i tore off down the rd with no front fairing (which means no lights) the side covers off, and everything finger tight but IT WORKS!!!! i nearly wrecked on the back side of the house (the rd behind my house - phase 2 of the subdivision) the front tire is prob slack, plus i hadn't ridden in years, so i couldn't turn :o but yea it works. and it's fairly smooth :) just a hair bit of hesitation, but it could be from 3 yr old gas :o lol anyways i'm stoke about it working.
so to celebrate, i cut the front yard :P yea now that's done. i figgered if i was already greesy and sweaty, might as well do yard work too :P heh so yea, i'm gonna cool off now, maybe find some food and might even add more later :P
wow. this sat sucked and owned :P
lets see: how it sucks:
i had to work.
lol
i ate supper with my folks after work. i forgot how much i hated eating with my faimly... all i head all dinner (at red lobster) was how "we asked for a table for 12, and we get 2 tables of 6, this waitress sucks, she's new on the job, i need a refil on water, did you run out of tea, i need more lemon, i need napkins, this lobster is tough and hard, service is so slow, what did we eat last time, they don't have that this time, it's just like them to change what we like, does the cole slaw have onions, i have to know if the cole slaw has onions [dad's alergic to onions], jason's didn't get what he asked for "it's fine dad" do they need to make it right "no it's fine dad" if you odn't like it, i'll make them take it back "no dad, this is fine - it all tastes the same to me" i'm not afraid to make them take it back and get what you wanted "i'm fine - this is good - mmmmmmm" so yeah the bitching sucked. 3/4 ways through dinner, when i had pretty much finished i moved over to the 2nd table that had my cousins and spouses... no wonder i moved out of the house. i hope i don't complain like that. wait, i know i do. i hope nobody gets as annoyed at me as i did to them.
so anyways i get home, eh, 7:30, 7:45, talk to chris for a lil bit, then i goto work on my bike. i get the wiring harness pretty much plugged in, finished soldering some wires together, etc. goto crank it, and it CLICK*CLICK*CLICK*CLICK*CLICK really fast. one (or 2) of 2 things: a) bad ground, or b) weak battery. but more than likely bad ground. i knew my ground was kinda shaddy, so i find a spare nut and tighten it down - still same thing. oh well, maybe i'll figger it out tommorrow. the battery i charged last thurs night i think, so it was still strong, but just in case, i put the charger back on it.
i have a pretty good convo with crystal after i get in, then i realize i left my coke outside, so i tell her "brb" with the intetion of going outside, getting the coke, and coming back in. well, while i'm outside, i decide to see if the charged did anything. hope, still same. i start looking "maybe i missed something" and sure enuf, i see i have the ground hooked up to the wrong bolt. i'm like "hot damn son" so i fix it. turn the starter TURN*TURN*TURN*TURN W00t!!!!! so now i'm stoked, i spray some engine degreaser in it to get it to hit, but i'm like "eh, i better not, it might eat up the rubber seals and shit" so i go get the gas tank and strap it on, watch the gas flow, turn the key over and over and over, it hits, hits again, smells flooded..... gah i was getting so anxious.... turn turn turn turn hit turn turn hit turn hit turn hit hit hit turn hit hit vroom hit hit hit VROOOOOM!!!!! HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA so nice and fucking loud :) i know the neighbors had to be goign "WTF?!" cause it's like... eh, 12:15 at night :) not to mention i belive it's low on oil, and i want to change the oil (again) so i shut it off after about 2-3 mins... well, it dies down, but whatever. lol. but i'm stoked. tommorrow i soooo do'nt wanna goto work but i have no choice. and i'm faced with a harder choice: i've been pretty much bikeless for nearly 3 years. i can go another few days. i do'n know what crystal's plans are, so if she has none, i'd like to spend time with her. if not, looks like i know who i have a date with (my toolbox, not the porn [again]) ;) all i have left to do before i can ride it is hook up the front fairing and lights... tho if i get home early enuf (wnever that is) i'll ride it w/o fairings and headlights around the neighboorhood. btw the neighboorhood does had an ordinace against "exceptionally loud motorcycles" so looks like i may get to test the neighboors :P
wow. i'm sad. :) but stoked heh
lets see: how it sucks:
i had to work.
lol
i ate supper with my folks after work. i forgot how much i hated eating with my faimly... all i head all dinner (at red lobster) was how "we asked for a table for 12, and we get 2 tables of 6, this waitress sucks, she's new on the job, i need a refil on water, did you run out of tea, i need more lemon, i need napkins, this lobster is tough and hard, service is so slow, what did we eat last time, they don't have that this time, it's just like them to change what we like, does the cole slaw have onions, i have to know if the cole slaw has onions [dad's alergic to onions], jason's didn't get what he asked for "it's fine dad" do they need to make it right "no it's fine dad" if you odn't like it, i'll make them take it back "no dad, this is fine - it all tastes the same to me" i'm not afraid to make them take it back and get what you wanted "i'm fine - this is good - mmmmmmm" so yeah the bitching sucked. 3/4 ways through dinner, when i had pretty much finished i moved over to the 2nd table that had my cousins and spouses... no wonder i moved out of the house. i hope i don't complain like that. wait, i know i do. i hope nobody gets as annoyed at me as i did to them.
so anyways i get home, eh, 7:30, 7:45, talk to chris for a lil bit, then i goto work on my bike. i get the wiring harness pretty much plugged in, finished soldering some wires together, etc. goto crank it, and it CLICK*CLICK*CLICK*CLICK*CLICK really fast. one (or 2) of 2 things: a) bad ground, or b) weak battery. but more than likely bad ground. i knew my ground was kinda shaddy, so i find a spare nut and tighten it down - still same thing. oh well, maybe i'll figger it out tommorrow. the battery i charged last thurs night i think, so it was still strong, but just in case, i put the charger back on it.
i have a pretty good convo with crystal after i get in, then i realize i left my coke outside, so i tell her "brb" with the intetion of going outside, getting the coke, and coming back in. well, while i'm outside, i decide to see if the charged did anything. hope, still same. i start looking "maybe i missed something" and sure enuf, i see i have the ground hooked up to the wrong bolt. i'm like "hot damn son" so i fix it. turn the starter TURN*TURN*TURN*TURN W00t!!!!! so now i'm stoked, i spray some engine degreaser in it to get it to hit, but i'm like "eh, i better not, it might eat up the rubber seals and shit" so i go get the gas tank and strap it on, watch the gas flow, turn the key over and over and over, it hits, hits again, smells flooded..... gah i was getting so anxious.... turn turn turn turn hit turn turn hit turn hit turn hit hit hit turn hit hit vroom hit hit hit VROOOOOM!!!!! HAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA so nice and fucking loud :) i know the neighbors had to be goign "WTF?!" cause it's like... eh, 12:15 at night :) not to mention i belive it's low on oil, and i want to change the oil (again) so i shut it off after about 2-3 mins... well, it dies down, but whatever. lol. but i'm stoked. tommorrow i soooo do'nt wanna goto work but i have no choice. and i'm faced with a harder choice: i've been pretty much bikeless for nearly 3 years. i can go another few days. i do'n know what crystal's plans are, so if she has none, i'd like to spend time with her. if not, looks like i know who i have a date with (my toolbox, not the porn [again]) ;) all i have left to do before i can ride it is hook up the front fairing and lights... tho if i get home early enuf (wnever that is) i'll ride it w/o fairings and headlights around the neighboorhood. btw the neighboorhood does had an ordinace against "exceptionally loud motorcycles" so looks like i may get to test the neighboors :P
wow. i'm sad. :) but stoked heh
Friday, July 29, 2005
omfg - this mona lisa beaded curtian scared the SHIT out of me as i walked in the house a few mins ago :o i just SWORE somebody was standing in teh doorway....
sometimes things happen for mysterious reasons - things are said that normally couldn't be put into the correct words at the right time, sometimes things aren't said that didn't need to be said, sometimes certian things are done taht needed to be done - it's all done for some reason beyond our control.
i just got back from crystals - i left around, eh, 10:50, got back, eh, 2:05 - but omg so worth it. i enjoyed it beyond all - this was the highlight of my week, par none. thank you crystal :)
aah, well, tommorrow's another full crappy day at work - g'night folks!
sometimes things happen for mysterious reasons - things are said that normally couldn't be put into the correct words at the right time, sometimes things aren't said that didn't need to be said, sometimes certian things are done taht needed to be done - it's all done for some reason beyond our control.
i just got back from crystals - i left around, eh, 10:50, got back, eh, 2:05 - but omg so worth it. i enjoyed it beyond all - this was the highlight of my week, par none. thank you crystal :)
aah, well, tommorrow's another full crappy day at work - g'night folks!
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
:'(
i've been recieving a daily update from my mom about my uncle - this is the excerpt from today:
"I assume Thomas asked approximately how much time he had. The answer from Faulkner was around 6 weeks. I hope he doesn’t just give up. That would be the worst."
:'(
fuck all this - bad timing to what was just said - g'night :(
"I assume Thomas asked approximately how much time he had. The answer from Faulkner was around 6 weeks. I hope he doesn’t just give up. That would be the worst."
:'(
fuck all this - bad timing to what was just said - g'night :(
joke
The rescue team finds the crashed airplane. The lone survivor is chewing on a bone, with a huge pile of human bones next to him, and the rescuers are shocked. He says, "You can't judge me for this. I had to survive." The leader of the rescue team says, "But Jesus Christ, man... your plane only went down yesterday."
phew. lil after 9 til lil before 8 - what's taht 11 hours sleep? :)
haha, i showed chris the buttery nipple drink - baileys irish cream and butterscotch schnapps - normally he's like "no, no" this time he's like "how bad does it hurt to drink?" hehhehe i so bad. i know i am. <-- tho i did find out about the drink - when it's layered like its supposed to be (top layer baileys, bottom layer butterscotch) it does taste better...
haha, i showed chris the buttery nipple drink - baileys irish cream and butterscotch schnapps - normally he's like "no, no" this time he's like "how bad does it hurt to drink?" hehhehe i so bad. i know i am. <-- tho i did find out about the drink - when it's layered like its supposed to be (top layer baileys, bottom layer butterscotch) it does taste better...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
mmm... what a night.
got home.
11:30 - i'm tired i should goto bed... give me a few more mins...
12:30 - damn it's 12:30 i need to goto bed
1:30 - fuck! it's 1:30 already
4 a.m. - well, no need in going to sleep now
4:15 - make ramen noodles and eat em
4:30 - wanna goto waffle house? ok
5 - waffle house
7:30 - damn i feel like falling asleep
8 - guess it's time to get ready for work in 1h...
:D
got home.
11:30 - i'm tired i should goto bed... give me a few more mins...
12:30 - damn it's 12:30 i need to goto bed
1:30 - fuck! it's 1:30 already
4 a.m. - well, no need in going to sleep now
4:15 - make ramen noodles and eat em
4:30 - wanna goto waffle house? ok
5 - waffle house
7:30 - damn i feel like falling asleep
8 - guess it's time to get ready for work in 1h...
:D
Monday, July 25, 2005
looks like i might be able to get the bike running by this weekend :o
i went out today, spent.... eh, an hour? less? on it. and a third of that time was cleaning the trash out from in front of it, cleaning up, putting away tools, etc. and i tested the parts i put on, and they tested PERFECT lol. i think tommorow if i can, i may try to finish placing the wireing harness on :o i thin i may be able to hook up the gas guage now :o :o then see if i can crank it! i know the battery is deader than shit, but i'll figger something out... like that car battery i replaced back in the fall should still have some charge :P
omg i'm so stoked about this thing. this is the most promising it has been since... well over 2 yrs.
hrm. well, i goign to bed tonight with a smile on me face :)
i went out today, spent.... eh, an hour? less? on it. and a third of that time was cleaning the trash out from in front of it, cleaning up, putting away tools, etc. and i tested the parts i put on, and they tested PERFECT lol. i think tommorow if i can, i may try to finish placing the wireing harness on :o i thin i may be able to hook up the gas guage now :o :o then see if i can crank it! i know the battery is deader than shit, but i'll figger something out... like that car battery i replaced back in the fall should still have some charge :P
omg i'm so stoked about this thing. this is the most promising it has been since... well over 2 yrs.
hrm. well, i goign to bed tonight with a smile on me face :)
i got offline and went to bed a few mins ago, but got back on to state that i wasn't really feeling the the hottest earlier, then i felt alot better after talking to someone special. then yet again, i'm forced to try to sleep in a puddle of my own self worthlessness feelings... i wasn't ignoring you, if it felt like i was, i'm sorry. so thanks.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
wow.
today i went "home" to my folks, expecially to see my uncle. :( i live about 30 mins away from my parents, and i was there right after noon to eat lunch with them. ate some of the hamburgers i bought last week :P
i found out my uncle bought the gator himself (john deere gator) - the one you see below this post. he has been going to the doctor every other week to get the water pumped out, but for the past 3 weeks he's been going every week. mom showed me a pic comparing him now to about... 2 yrs ago. omg. :'( i almost let a tear fall... his arms.. are so small.... his face... is so sunken... his neck... is so small.... his belly... is so swollen... he has no energy. he's always cold. while in the house with him, he was only awake for maybe 15 mins then he drifted off to sleep. they say that's they way he's been for weeks now... he made the comment last week to dad "if it would only warm up, maybe i could get out and do something..." (btw, it was prob 100°+ in that house today - his wife wants to turn on a fan, but when she does, he shivers...) i felt so so sooo bad for him. i still do. it was a scary phrase my aunt (his sister) said to me a few weeks ago - "if he doesn't get down on his knees and pray to god for forgiveness, he's going to goto hell for killing his father." that was some deep shit. yes, 30 years ago, he shot and killed his father while my granddad was in a drunken fit of rage, shooting at my grandmother and other family with a deer rifle. i can't image my uncle thomas going to hell. he's way to kind hearted to go there :( he'd give anything to anyone. he's always given away so cheerfully anything he had to offer, even when he couldn't afford it. my family has always said both him and his wife have the biggest hearts. dad's talking about "i guess i need to go get my... from down there" we know it's inevetible. a few weeks, a few months. we don't know when, but we konw it's not far away. i am scared shitless. i've never lost anyone close to me like that. yes, my great aunt died about 6 months ago, and i did feel remorse, but, i wasn't really close to her. this is the uncle i grew up right next to for 20 years. the uncle i'd go fishin with. the uncle who would let me drive any vehicle or tractor he had. *i'm almost in tears right now thinking about all this - the tears are welling up, but have yet to fall* i don't know what to do. i guess all i can do is pray for him. i can't ask god not to take him away - if it's his time, then it's just his time. i guess all i can ask is for him not to endure any pain :( i don't want anybody to suffer. expecially him. and i don't want him to goto hell. yes, he did kill his father. but it wasn't on purpose, and it was self defense - one life was taken that day; more than that could have been lost if what was done hadn't happened.
when i left the house and headed for home, mom said the usual "glad you came, come back anytime, drive careful" then she added one more line - "i love you". *my chin's quivering now* that's one phrase was was taken for granted while i was growing up, but i never really heard it or said it. when she said it, it was out of the ordinary. just the realazation that life is short, what if she never saw me or heard from me again? i tell you, i was more scared driving home tonight then i have been my whole life i think. i took mostly major roads just because, to minimzed the risk of a deer jumping out and something happening to me. i haven't really felt that fear before.
*sniff*
i watched i belive it was extreame home makeover, where they take a needy family, tell them to get their shit out, bulldoze the house, send them on vacation, then rebuild the house in 7 days. the family tonight was actually 2 famililes, 11 people living in a 3 bedroom house. they sent them to disney and reconstructed the house into a huge 2 story, i think 9 bedroom house. while on vacation, a daughter was going to miss her final sr. high school basketball game. while on the cruise, they called her and told her to look up: a helicoptor was landing to pick her up, to bring her back, to play the game. (tears started to swell when i saw that on tv) they lost the game, but then they put her back in a limo right after the game and sent her back on vacation. when the family saw the house tears did roll down my face - it was very touching. they each had a personalized bedroom; their mortage was paid off; the house was made so energy efficent, it should cost much less then thier existing house; they recieved a ford excape hybrid - and 6 more ford focuses; arnold the governator congradulated them; the whole episode was very warming.
wow. i read that chris and amy are no more... that sucks, for the both of them - they're both my friends.
omg. what a depressing day. i even shed a few tears. that's very uncommon for me. now time to goto sleep :(
today i went "home" to my folks, expecially to see my uncle. :( i live about 30 mins away from my parents, and i was there right after noon to eat lunch with them. ate some of the hamburgers i bought last week :P
i found out my uncle bought the gator himself (john deere gator) - the one you see below this post. he has been going to the doctor every other week to get the water pumped out, but for the past 3 weeks he's been going every week. mom showed me a pic comparing him now to about... 2 yrs ago. omg. :'( i almost let a tear fall... his arms.. are so small.... his face... is so sunken... his neck... is so small.... his belly... is so swollen... he has no energy. he's always cold. while in the house with him, he was only awake for maybe 15 mins then he drifted off to sleep. they say that's they way he's been for weeks now... he made the comment last week to dad "if it would only warm up, maybe i could get out and do something..." (btw, it was prob 100°+ in that house today - his wife wants to turn on a fan, but when she does, he shivers...) i felt so so sooo bad for him. i still do. it was a scary phrase my aunt (his sister) said to me a few weeks ago - "if he doesn't get down on his knees and pray to god for forgiveness, he's going to goto hell for killing his father." that was some deep shit. yes, 30 years ago, he shot and killed his father while my granddad was in a drunken fit of rage, shooting at my grandmother and other family with a deer rifle. i can't image my uncle thomas going to hell. he's way to kind hearted to go there :( he'd give anything to anyone. he's always given away so cheerfully anything he had to offer, even when he couldn't afford it. my family has always said both him and his wife have the biggest hearts. dad's talking about "i guess i need to go get my... from down there" we know it's inevetible. a few weeks, a few months. we don't know when, but we konw it's not far away. i am scared shitless. i've never lost anyone close to me like that. yes, my great aunt died about 6 months ago, and i did feel remorse, but, i wasn't really close to her. this is the uncle i grew up right next to for 20 years. the uncle i'd go fishin with. the uncle who would let me drive any vehicle or tractor he had. *i'm almost in tears right now thinking about all this - the tears are welling up, but have yet to fall* i don't know what to do. i guess all i can do is pray for him. i can't ask god not to take him away - if it's his time, then it's just his time. i guess all i can ask is for him not to endure any pain :( i don't want anybody to suffer. expecially him. and i don't want him to goto hell. yes, he did kill his father. but it wasn't on purpose, and it was self defense - one life was taken that day; more than that could have been lost if what was done hadn't happened.
when i left the house and headed for home, mom said the usual "glad you came, come back anytime, drive careful" then she added one more line - "i love you". *my chin's quivering now* that's one phrase was was taken for granted while i was growing up, but i never really heard it or said it. when she said it, it was out of the ordinary. just the realazation that life is short, what if she never saw me or heard from me again? i tell you, i was more scared driving home tonight then i have been my whole life i think. i took mostly major roads just because, to minimzed the risk of a deer jumping out and something happening to me. i haven't really felt that fear before.
*sniff*
i watched i belive it was extreame home makeover, where they take a needy family, tell them to get their shit out, bulldoze the house, send them on vacation, then rebuild the house in 7 days. the family tonight was actually 2 famililes, 11 people living in a 3 bedroom house. they sent them to disney and reconstructed the house into a huge 2 story, i think 9 bedroom house. while on vacation, a daughter was going to miss her final sr. high school basketball game. while on the cruise, they called her and told her to look up: a helicoptor was landing to pick her up, to bring her back, to play the game. (tears started to swell when i saw that on tv) they lost the game, but then they put her back in a limo right after the game and sent her back on vacation. when the family saw the house tears did roll down my face - it was very touching. they each had a personalized bedroom; their mortage was paid off; the house was made so energy efficent, it should cost much less then thier existing house; they recieved a ford excape hybrid - and 6 more ford focuses; arnold the governator congradulated them; the whole episode was very warming.
wow. i read that chris and amy are no more... that sucks, for the both of them - they're both my friends.
omg. what a depressing day. i even shed a few tears. that's very uncommon for me. now time to goto sleep :(
Saturday, July 23, 2005
hrm what an interesting day.
lets see. first off, i'll apologize. i apologize to crystal. i cause her a number of tears earlier, and i'm sorry for what i said and did.
urm. me and brad and chris went to best buy, then wal mart, then quick trip. that was interesting enuf in itself. i got a cheap tripod fer my cameras and a vent pipe for the dryer. then a 32oz drink. big spender :P
umm... i've caused enuf pain and crap for one day. tommorrow i need to go visit my uncle. from there who knows what i'm doing. oh well. g'night.
lets see. first off, i'll apologize. i apologize to crystal. i cause her a number of tears earlier, and i'm sorry for what i said and did.
urm. me and brad and chris went to best buy, then wal mart, then quick trip. that was interesting enuf in itself. i got a cheap tripod fer my cameras and a vent pipe for the dryer. then a 32oz drink. big spender :P
umm... i've caused enuf pain and crap for one day. tommorrow i need to go visit my uncle. from there who knows what i'm doing. oh well. g'night.
omG!
calvin and hobbes!
The Complete Calvin and Hobbes: A New Calvin and Hobbes Collection!
Great news! The Complete Calvin and Hobbes will be published September 1, 2005, containing 3 large hard-cover albums featuring all Calvin and Hobbes cartoons that ever appeared in syndication.
The list price is $150, but it's available now available for pre-order for only $94.50!
:o :o :o
I have the following books:
Calvin and Hobbes
The Essential Calvin and Hobbes: A Calvin and Hobbes Treasury
The Authoritative Calvin and Hobbes: A Calvin and Hobbes Treasury
The Indispensable Calvin and Hobbes
Homicidal Psycho Jungle Cat
The Calvin and Hobbes Tenth Anniversary Book
There's Treasure Everywhere
It's A Magical World
You know... my b-day is coming up soon :)
The Complete Calvin and Hobbes: A New Calvin and Hobbes Collection!
Great news! The Complete Calvin and Hobbes will be published September 1, 2005, containing 3 large hard-cover albums featuring all Calvin and Hobbes cartoons that ever appeared in syndication.
The list price is $150, but it's available now available for pre-order for only $94.50!
:o :o :o
I have the following books:
Calvin and Hobbes
The Essential Calvin and Hobbes: A Calvin and Hobbes Treasury
The Authoritative Calvin and Hobbes: A Calvin and Hobbes Treasury
The Indispensable Calvin and Hobbes
Homicidal Psycho Jungle Cat
The Calvin and Hobbes Tenth Anniversary Book
There's Treasure Everywhere
It's A Magical World
You know... my b-day is coming up soon :)
call me lazy. i dare you
call me lazy. i dare you.
i just finished cutting the back yard. thats:
now i didn't cut the front yard (cause i did that last week and it didn't need it his week) but my whole yard, front and back, is now nearly perfectly mowed.
all this before 10:45 a.m.
i just finished cutting the back yard. thats:
- using the string trimmer to cut the hill and dog pen in the back yard.
- using the blade to cut down bushes and trees aroudn the dog pen
- using the push mower to cut the whole back yard
- using the blower to clean off the mess in the driveway i made
now i didn't cut the front yard (cause i did that last week and it didn't need it his week) but my whole yard, front and back, is now nearly perfectly mowed.
all this before 10:45 a.m.
phew, this hellish week is OVER! i didn't have to work today (thank goodness) i've aleady put in my just over 54 hours in this week, i sure as hell didn't need a 61+ hour week. monday: 9-7:45, tues: 9-9:15, wed: 9-7:05, thurs: 9-8:15, fri: 9-7:10. grand total? 54.5h :(
so, what better way to finish off the weekend then to get drunk! lol :) brad and jr came over, it was ok fun. jr got kinda wasted, we tried watching Harold and Klimer goto White Castle (yea, i fucked that all up) but i kept falling asleep so i went to bed. when i got up this morn someone finished off the margaritas lol they were about double stringht - calls for 4oz mix, 1.5oz tequila, well, i put in 12oz mix and 8oz tequila :)
this morn the bank's already called (again, like 7th time since january) cause i keep forgetting to pay my fucking house note :( i gotta start fucking keeping up with it. tho if thinks go like they're supposed to, i'll have this $100k debt paid off in a lil over a year and a half :) (that would be uber ownage).
i saw annie last night. actually i went to get a lawn mower from her dad, heh. he's back from mexico, i think they said for good. he was going to relocate there (against his will, but his job was moving) but from what i hear it didn't work out, they're not moving to mexico. i know his family is happy. i know he's really happy. but now i have a spare mower :) lol
omg i got an xm radio thursday :) it is so freekin' awesome! out of 150+ channels so far i like.... about 8 of em, heh. and i swear i heard mariah carey's we belong together like 30 fucking times yesterday, but, eh, oh well.
hrm, what's new what's new. i don't know what i'm doign today or tommorrow, all i know is next weekend is tax free holidays, so i work sat and sunday (only sunday a year i work) then the next 2 weekends after that i going for weekend classes. it's gonna sucks: July 25-Aug 4, then Aug 6-Aug 19 i'll be putting in 10 hour days... mon-fri work, and sat and sundays class. phew :( i got a damn near fucking solid month ahead of me.... BUT i still hope it's for alot better :) one lady even told me, even if this doesn't work out, i can put this on my resume, and it'll help me look more well rounded. sounds good. lol
actually, i guess i should go see my uncle tommorrow.... i got a phone call from mom i guess it was thursday, yea. i could tell the way she was talkign something was wrong... my uncle, the one i used to live next door to, we all knew his liver was toxic from alcohol abuse for 45+ years... come to find out he also has had lung cancer all this time... and the doctors are pretty much "making him comfortable..." :'(
ok that was a really sad note to leave this on. urm, mom invited me to goto jekyll island for labor day. i think i'm going. heh, what do i have to lose? $90, that's all :P lol. and around this time hopefully i'll be starting insurance sales. so i won't have extra money to goto the beach with, but this may be a good way to pre-celebrate? heh she said i could ride down with her and dad, or my sis and reagan if i wanted. what MY plan is is to get my fucking bike working... then give my luggage to my folk's and RIDE down... sounds fun.
ok, well, i gonna eat this cereal that's now sat in my milk for the better part of 20 mins or so, try to get re-hydrated, then prob cut some grass. call me if you want me :) g'bye
so, what better way to finish off the weekend then to get drunk! lol :) brad and jr came over, it was ok fun. jr got kinda wasted, we tried watching Harold and Klimer goto White Castle (yea, i fucked that all up) but i kept falling asleep so i went to bed. when i got up this morn someone finished off the margaritas lol they were about double stringht - calls for 4oz mix, 1.5oz tequila, well, i put in 12oz mix and 8oz tequila :)
this morn the bank's already called (again, like 7th time since january) cause i keep forgetting to pay my fucking house note :( i gotta start fucking keeping up with it. tho if thinks go like they're supposed to, i'll have this $100k debt paid off in a lil over a year and a half :) (that would be uber ownage).
i saw annie last night. actually i went to get a lawn mower from her dad, heh. he's back from mexico, i think they said for good. he was going to relocate there (against his will, but his job was moving) but from what i hear it didn't work out, they're not moving to mexico. i know his family is happy. i know he's really happy. but now i have a spare mower :) lol
omg i got an xm radio thursday :) it is so freekin' awesome! out of 150+ channels so far i like.... about 8 of em, heh. and i swear i heard mariah carey's we belong together like 30 fucking times yesterday, but, eh, oh well.
hrm, what's new what's new. i don't know what i'm doign today or tommorrow, all i know is next weekend is tax free holidays, so i work sat and sunday (only sunday a year i work) then the next 2 weekends after that i going for weekend classes. it's gonna sucks: July 25-Aug 4, then Aug 6-Aug 19 i'll be putting in 10 hour days... mon-fri work, and sat and sundays class. phew :( i got a damn near fucking solid month ahead of me.... BUT i still hope it's for alot better :) one lady even told me, even if this doesn't work out, i can put this on my resume, and it'll help me look more well rounded. sounds good. lol
actually, i guess i should go see my uncle tommorrow.... i got a phone call from mom i guess it was thursday, yea. i could tell the way she was talkign something was wrong... my uncle, the one i used to live next door to, we all knew his liver was toxic from alcohol abuse for 45+ years... come to find out he also has had lung cancer all this time... and the doctors are pretty much "making him comfortable..." :'(
ok that was a really sad note to leave this on. urm, mom invited me to goto jekyll island for labor day. i think i'm going. heh, what do i have to lose? $90, that's all :P lol. and around this time hopefully i'll be starting insurance sales. so i won't have extra money to goto the beach with, but this may be a good way to pre-celebrate? heh she said i could ride down with her and dad, or my sis and reagan if i wanted. what MY plan is is to get my fucking bike working... then give my luggage to my folk's and RIDE down... sounds fun.
ok, well, i gonna eat this cereal that's now sat in my milk for the better part of 20 mins or so, try to get re-hydrated, then prob cut some grass. call me if you want me :) g'bye
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Numbers from naadendy.com
Part-Time General Agent $44,000 Per Year
6 NAA Leads + 15-20 hours per week = 9 families helped and $3,668 per month to you
Full-Time General Agent $65,400 Per Year
10 NAA Leads + 20-25 hours per week = 14 families helped and $5,450 per month to you
A step up the income ladder for folks who want or need a little more for their efforts!
6 NAA Leads + 15-20 hours per week = 9 families helped and $3,668 per month to you
- Given 6 leads/week for part-time effort (Lead Cost 6 * $13/Lead = $78/Wk)
- If 40% of leads yield an appointment then 24 leads per month will yield 10 appointments.
- You experience a 25% cancellation rate equals 2 appointments canceled, the result is 8 appointments/month
- Given 8 appointments/month:
- Approximately 50% of appointments will yield 2 applications due to husband and wife securing a protection plan. This will result in 12 applications/month
- The average monthly premium per plan is $67/month
- Approximately 50% of appointments will yield 2 applications due to husband and wife securing a protection plan. This will result in 12 applications/month
- Suppose you experience a 25% cancellation/no-take rate of submitted apps which yields 9 applications that become issued and retained policies:
- $67/Mo * 12 months = $804 * 9 Apps = $7,236 of monthly submitted business.
- Based on a 55% commission rate the result is: ($7,236 *.55 *.8) - $312 lead cost = $2,872 on issue of policies plus $796 (20% hold back) = $3,668/Mo working 48 weeks a year (you take 4 weeks off a year) equates to an annual net income of:
- $44,000/Yr net income PART-TIME working 15-20 hours per week (Lead sales only)
- If you work referrals and sell only one more appointment per week, your income moves to: $65,226/Yr net income
- $44,000/Yr net income PART-TIME working 15-20 hours per week (Lead sales only)
- $67/Mo * 12 months = $804 * 9 Apps = $7,236 of monthly submitted business.
Full-Time General Agent $65,400 Per Year
10 NAA Leads + 20-25 hours per week = 14 families helped and $5,450 per month to you
A step up the income ladder for folks who want or need a little more for their efforts!
- Given 10 leads/week for full-time effort (Lead Cost 10 * $13/Lead = $130/Wk)
- If 40% of leads yield an appointment then 40 leads per month will yield 16 appointments.
- You experience a 25% cancellation rate equals 4 appointments canceled, the result is 12 appointments/month
- Given 12 appointments/month:
- Approximately 50% of appointments will yield 2 applications due to husband and wife securing a protection plan. This will result in 18 applications/month
- The average monthly premium per plan is $67/month
- Approximately 50% of appointments will yield 2 applications due to husband and wife securing a protection plan. This will result in 18 applications/month
- Suppose you experience a 25% cancellation/no-take rate of submitted apps which yields 14 applications that become issued and retained policies:
- $67/Mo * 12 months = $804 * 14 Apps = $10,854 of monthly submitted business.
- Based on a 55% commission rate the result is: ($10,854 *.55 *.8) - $520 lead cost = $4,256 on issue of policies plus $1,194 (20% hold back) = $5,450/Mo working 48 weeks a year (you take 4 weeks off a year) equates to an annual net income of:
- $65,400/Yr net income FULL-TIME working 20-25 hours per week (Lead sales only)
- If you work referrals and sell only one more appointment per week, your income moves to: $86,626/Yr net income
- $65,400/Yr net income FULL-TIME working 20-25 hours per week (Lead sales only)
- $67/Mo * 12 months = $804 * 14 Apps = $10,854 of monthly submitted business.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
heh heh heh heh heh heh....
i went back to barry dendy's... it's all good. foudn out the class you have to take to get your life insurance license is $175, and the next weeekend class is aug 6&7, and 13&14. guess what i'm taking? :)
oh, and we talked more realistic money. say i sell $10,000 in insurance. and say it's a 45% return. so that means i get a check for $4,500. minus ~28% taxes, that's $3,240 spendable a month. $3,240 x 12 months is $38,880 a year spendable (equiv to a $54,000 salary). remember, i only make $27k a year now (take home about $20,800 yearly). i welcome an almost double salary! and, this is working <25h a week. no more 50+h weeks.
hrm. brad said he wanted to come over, something about having his buddy from 2 yrs ago wreck an audi, wanted to import the tape or something. sounds fun. and mmmm this peach ice cream is really good :)
ok i doubt i'll type more tonight. g'night (in a lil while)
i went back to barry dendy's... it's all good. foudn out the class you have to take to get your life insurance license is $175, and the next weeekend class is aug 6&7, and 13&14. guess what i'm taking? :)
oh, and we talked more realistic money. say i sell $10,000 in insurance. and say it's a 45% return. so that means i get a check for $4,500. minus ~28% taxes, that's $3,240 spendable a month. $3,240 x 12 months is $38,880 a year spendable (equiv to a $54,000 salary). remember, i only make $27k a year now (take home about $20,800 yearly). i welcome an almost double salary! and, this is working <25h a week. no more 50+h weeks.
hrm. brad said he wanted to come over, something about having his buddy from 2 yrs ago wreck an audi, wanted to import the tape or something. sounds fun. and mmmm this peach ice cream is really good :)
ok i doubt i'll type more tonight. g'night (in a lil while)
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
holy shit. had i finished that margarita then i wouldn't have been able to find my truck, much less drive home - thankfully i only had half - so i could find the truck. and yes, i made it home :P
omg this morn i woke up in such a horrible mood. money problems are the worst :( i was leaving myself voice memos, because i wanted to say shit and i knew i'd forget it. basically i said:
but yea few things have changed since this morning...
last call of the day was barry dendy. god, barry dendy. he's the guy i talked about earlier that said "if you work for me and don't make at least $60,000 your first year, i'll pay you the difference. today, i had over 4 ppl say i'd do great selling life insurance. i found out: take 40 hours of classes (2 weekends) and pass a test to get my life insurance license. then it's smooth sailing :P one girl is in her 4th month of selling insurance, and has already pocketed $25,000.... (remember my YEARLY salary for working 50h a week is $27,000) looks like i know what i'm doing. oh, btw, this is 15-25h a week. lining up like 5 clients a week, spending a few hours with each in the evenings. omfg. you have to be kidding me.
again, i ask for all of ya'll's help.
i heard from brad at like 9 p.m. said they're waiting for a wrecker - his buddy's 944 isn't in good shape i heard.
i told crystal i'd like to see her, but that i didn't know what i'd be doing. she msgs me at 9 p.m. and asked "so i guess i'm not seeing you?" i'm like "gd. FUUUCK!" (i didn't say that to her then) i didn't think that i'd actually get to see her - looks like i might have been wrong. i'm sorry :(
which kinda leads me to my next question. crystal: do i really make you happy? i feel like i don't - that, i don't know, that, there's this just big huge flaw that you're intentionally overlooking for to make me happy. if that is the case, then please, let me know - i won't be happy unless you're happy. you've pretty much seen the way i am, i don't see myself changing.
oh that reminds me :) we were talking earlier, and i said to her "all movies needed to be like 25 mins long - if they cost like $2 then you could goto the moves and watch like 4-5 movies, and since they were cheaper and shorter, more ppl would come to watch, which meant more popcorn and cokes and shit, so it's a win win situation - if i a movie's boring, you're not stuck forever. it costs less to goto the movies. the theatre makes more money... what's not to like? :D
hrm... welp i think i may goto bed - gettin' tired... last night worked til 7:45, tonight 9:20ish (i ate food and drank some during that time too) STILL 7 svc calls tommorow, now 8 (i get to go back to barry - failing hard drive?) :( so it's gonna be hell. i'm not looking foward to it. i ought to screw everyone over and call in sick :) heh heh heh...... oh well g'night
omg this morn i woke up in such a horrible mood. money problems are the worst :( i was leaving myself voice memos, because i wanted to say shit and i knew i'd forget it. basically i said:
- work sucks
- we're short handed at work
- jr is doing all the repairs in shop
- brad and horace are on vacation
- gene and LFD doesn't really work on repairs
- jr actually got $0 billed yesterday
- i got billing and svc calls to do plus more
- i saw a bmw on the way to work. i almost swerved out in front of the next vechical i was so mad that i'm basically told "you can't have one"
- i have GOT to find somethign to calm me down this morning (i later deduced i needed to get drunk - whoops?) :P
- traffic is killing me - stuipd drivers
- i'm driving beside this jeep w/ a ladder on top (just like my exploer was this morn) and this pos sounded like it was barely running... i'm afraid mine will turn to this if i stay at this "bitch of a job" - i hate it
- i'm going balastic
- i'm looking at getting a 2nd job
- last time i looked for a 2nd job annie talked me out of it cause i'd have no time to spend with her
- now, nobody wants to spend time with me during the week, so what does it really matter?
- I'm a month and 3 weeks behind on billing
- the boss didn't bitch at me for being over a month behind, but did state that we got to find something better that works
but yea few things have changed since this morning...
last call of the day was barry dendy. god, barry dendy. he's the guy i talked about earlier that said "if you work for me and don't make at least $60,000 your first year, i'll pay you the difference. today, i had over 4 ppl say i'd do great selling life insurance. i found out: take 40 hours of classes (2 weekends) and pass a test to get my life insurance license. then it's smooth sailing :P one girl is in her 4th month of selling insurance, and has already pocketed $25,000.... (remember my YEARLY salary for working 50h a week is $27,000) looks like i know what i'm doing. oh, btw, this is 15-25h a week. lining up like 5 clients a week, spending a few hours with each in the evenings. omfg. you have to be kidding me.
again, i ask for all of ya'll's help.
PLEASE do whatever the fuck it takes to make me (it won't be against my will) but MAKE ME take these fucking classes and change gd jobs!
i heard from brad at like 9 p.m. said they're waiting for a wrecker - his buddy's 944 isn't in good shape i heard.
i told crystal i'd like to see her, but that i didn't know what i'd be doing. she msgs me at 9 p.m. and asked "so i guess i'm not seeing you?" i'm like "gd. FUUUCK!" (i didn't say that to her then) i didn't think that i'd actually get to see her - looks like i might have been wrong. i'm sorry :(
which kinda leads me to my next question. crystal: do i really make you happy? i feel like i don't - that, i don't know, that, there's this just big huge flaw that you're intentionally overlooking for to make me happy. if that is the case, then please, let me know - i won't be happy unless you're happy. you've pretty much seen the way i am, i don't see myself changing.
oh that reminds me :) we were talking earlier, and i said to her "all movies needed to be like 25 mins long - if they cost like $2 then you could goto the moves and watch like 4-5 movies, and since they were cheaper and shorter, more ppl would come to watch, which meant more popcorn and cokes and shit, so it's a win win situation - if i a movie's boring, you're not stuck forever. it costs less to goto the movies. the theatre makes more money... what's not to like? :D
hrm... welp i think i may goto bed - gettin' tired... last night worked til 7:45, tonight 9:20ish (i ate food and drank some during that time too) STILL 7 svc calls tommorow, now 8 (i get to go back to barry - failing hard drive?) :( so it's gonna be hell. i'm not looking foward to it. i ought to screw everyone over and call in sick :) heh heh heh...... oh well g'night
Monday, July 18, 2005
what a day
hrm, im' like on time to work. what an occasion!
i put in my 10h 45m (yea, i was pissed getting off at 7:45)
i went and saw the beemer i want. it looks niiiiice from the outside and from 10' away. there are alot of details on it that kinda look like shit. like the trim, some holes cut for a vent, the hood hinge, windshield, dash, steering wheel, inside trim... it needs a really good going over, maybe repainting some shit and stuff. not to mention the rattle between the tranny and the engine :-\ i gonna make some phone calls see if someone knows what it is, and how much it'll cost. also i gotta see if i can get approved for financing. another phone call for tommorrow....
i talked to brad. acutally he was in the middle of buying a VW GTI as i kept calling and askign questions and shit. i found pics of the Mazda 3 hatchback he has now and the VW GTI - they look pretty much the same! well, mazda = 4 doors, vw = 2 doors, but still. *hrm* long live the mazda... it will be forever remembered... for falling apart... rattling... clicking.... ragged to hell and back.... poor poor next owner - i'd hate to be that sap....
so yea. i found out adding this beemer will increase my insurance by like $60/m. adding dad's 78 f-100 will increase it $3 a month :P tho i still need that pickup.....
urm, not much new. just the usual. think i'll goto bed soon. g'nighty :)
i put in my 10h 45m (yea, i was pissed getting off at 7:45)
i went and saw the beemer i want. it looks niiiiice from the outside and from 10' away. there are alot of details on it that kinda look like shit. like the trim, some holes cut for a vent, the hood hinge, windshield, dash, steering wheel, inside trim... it needs a really good going over, maybe repainting some shit and stuff. not to mention the rattle between the tranny and the engine :-\ i gonna make some phone calls see if someone knows what it is, and how much it'll cost. also i gotta see if i can get approved for financing. another phone call for tommorrow....
i talked to brad. acutally he was in the middle of buying a VW GTI as i kept calling and askign questions and shit. i found pics of the Mazda 3 hatchback he has now and the VW GTI - they look pretty much the same! well, mazda = 4 doors, vw = 2 doors, but still. *hrm* long live the mazda... it will be forever remembered... for falling apart... rattling... clicking.... ragged to hell and back.... poor poor next owner - i'd hate to be that sap....
so yea. i found out adding this beemer will increase my insurance by like $60/m. adding dad's 78 f-100 will increase it $3 a month :P tho i still need that pickup.....
urm, not much new. just the usual. think i'll goto bed soon. g'nighty :)
Saturday, July 16, 2005
awe man so far today's been fun :)
ok, i went to covington and got a haircut, then i jumped on the interstate and started going towards conyers at about 80. i'm in the outside lane, this s-10 is in the inside lane and blows past me going at least 100mph. good for him. about 1/4 to 1/8 a mile behind him is this cavalier with a huge (thanks brad for the word) fart can :)he catches up to the guy, they both slow down to prob 65, side by side, i catch almost up with them (i'm still going 80) then they take off. repeat about 3x more times. well, almost to 138 i catch up with them again, this time pissed that they're slowing me down. so i stay on the s-10's ass until the cavelier realizes i want a piece of action, so it takes off. i merge over all the back to the outside lane (there was traffic) and didn't really let off the gas til nearly west ave - i was going almost 100 weaving in and out of traffic, watching both of them bounch around in the lanes TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH ME :P hahahahahahaha it was soooo fun. i merge off at west ave and watch them drive by. it was fun.
i'm all proud of myself, so far i've burned like 4 dvd's and cd of crap, so i have at least 17gb freed up :) woot! now only like 300gb to go!
i went to my anut and uncle's lawn mower shop today, to get the blower. then i hung around for another couple of hours and talked to my aunt. it's amazing how everytime i learn more and more. like about how my grandfather would drink approx a half gal of moonshine everyday. i just did some research and found out that moonshine could be as strong as 150 proof. hot gd! half a gal is 1,892 ml, and i know about 3-4 shots of 30 ml each of bacardi 151 will stright put me out! so i can only imagine the equiv of 60 FUCKIGN SHOTS OF 150 PROOF HOLY SHIT no i can't imagine that. you'd be DEAD.
hrm, i just ate some mac & cheese, so now i'm not starvin'. i need to cut the grass, so i'll go do that real shortly.
urm. until then. g'bye.
ok, i went to covington and got a haircut, then i jumped on the interstate and started going towards conyers at about 80. i'm in the outside lane, this s-10 is in the inside lane and blows past me going at least 100mph. good for him. about 1/4 to 1/8 a mile behind him is this cavalier with a huge (thanks brad for the word) fart can :)he catches up to the guy, they both slow down to prob 65, side by side, i catch almost up with them (i'm still going 80) then they take off. repeat about 3x more times. well, almost to 138 i catch up with them again, this time pissed that they're slowing me down. so i stay on the s-10's ass until the cavelier realizes i want a piece of action, so it takes off. i merge over all the back to the outside lane (there was traffic) and didn't really let off the gas til nearly west ave - i was going almost 100 weaving in and out of traffic, watching both of them bounch around in the lanes TRYING TO KEEP UP WITH ME :P hahahahahahaha it was soooo fun. i merge off at west ave and watch them drive by. it was fun.
i'm all proud of myself, so far i've burned like 4 dvd's and cd of crap, so i have at least 17gb freed up :) woot! now only like 300gb to go!
i went to my anut and uncle's lawn mower shop today, to get the blower. then i hung around for another couple of hours and talked to my aunt. it's amazing how everytime i learn more and more. like about how my grandfather would drink approx a half gal of moonshine everyday. i just did some research and found out that moonshine could be as strong as 150 proof. hot gd! half a gal is 1,892 ml, and i know about 3-4 shots of 30 ml each of bacardi 151 will stright put me out! so i can only imagine the equiv of 60 FUCKIGN SHOTS OF 150 PROOF HOLY SHIT no i can't imagine that. you'd be DEAD.
hrm, i just ate some mac & cheese, so now i'm not starvin'. i need to cut the grass, so i'll go do that real shortly.
urm. until then. g'bye.
this just got weirder:
crystal found a dream dictionary that like explains certian things about dreams. this is what some of the key things in my dream below mean:
To dream that you are in a church, suggests that you are seeking for some spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. Perhaps you have made some mistakes in the past which have set you back on your path toward your goals. With proper support, you will get on the right track again. Alternatively, it may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.
To see or eat a cracker in your dream, suggests that you tend to care for the needs of others besides your own. You spend your time looking of for other people and as a result, neglect your needs. The dream may also be a pun on "crack her". Perhaps you are trying to get someone to reveal certain information or secrets.
To dream of eating cheese symbolizes disappointment or hurt feelings.
**(What about mac & cheese, does this count?)**
To see a toilet in your dream means you need to release your emotions, or get rid of something in your life that is useless. If you dream of flushing yourself down the toilet, you can no longer hide your feelings about a certain situation that has been making you feel overwhelmed. To dream that you are watched while you are using the toilet, signifies your frustrations about getting enough privacy. It may also indicate that you are having difficulties letting go of old emotions. If you reveal these feelings, you are afraid that others around you will judge and criticize you. To dream of a clogged toilet represents repressed or pent up emotions that need to be released and expressed.
To see gravel in your dream relates to your practical nature.
Pleasurable dreams about food/eating mean you are happy in a real life relationship. If you dream about stuffing yourself or feeling sick when eating, you are feeling nervous or guilty about a friendship situation.
Pleasurable dreams about eating mean you are happy in a real life relationship. If you dream about stuffing yourself or feeling sick when eating, you are feeling nervous or guilty about a friendship situation. To dream of eating alone means you're feeling sad. To dream that you are watching others eat, means you feel left out of "the banquet of life" - you need more fulfillment, love and friendship in your waking life.
To dream that you are standing in line, indicates your need for patience. You should be prepared to wait for something and not have it right away.
To dream that you are standing alone, or feeling scared of being alone, symbolizes temporary and fleeting worries that will soon pass. You may feel that you don't have a lot of support from friends and family when you have to go through a problem situation.
To dream that you hit something or someone, is symbolic of unexpressed anger and aggression. You tend to keep your negative feelings inside instead of expressing them in a healthy way.
interesing.........
crystal found a dream dictionary that like explains certian things about dreams. this is what some of the key things in my dream below mean:
To dream that you are in a church, suggests that you are seeking for some spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. Perhaps you have made some mistakes in the past which have set you back on your path toward your goals. With proper support, you will get on the right track again. Alternatively, it may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.
To see or eat a cracker in your dream, suggests that you tend to care for the needs of others besides your own. You spend your time looking of for other people and as a result, neglect your needs. The dream may also be a pun on "crack her". Perhaps you are trying to get someone to reveal certain information or secrets.
To dream of eating cheese symbolizes disappointment or hurt feelings.
**(What about mac & cheese, does this count?)**
To see a toilet in your dream means you need to release your emotions, or get rid of something in your life that is useless. If you dream of flushing yourself down the toilet, you can no longer hide your feelings about a certain situation that has been making you feel overwhelmed. To dream that you are watched while you are using the toilet, signifies your frustrations about getting enough privacy. It may also indicate that you are having difficulties letting go of old emotions. If you reveal these feelings, you are afraid that others around you will judge and criticize you. To dream of a clogged toilet represents repressed or pent up emotions that need to be released and expressed.
To see gravel in your dream relates to your practical nature.
Pleasurable dreams about food/eating mean you are happy in a real life relationship. If you dream about stuffing yourself or feeling sick when eating, you are feeling nervous or guilty about a friendship situation.
Pleasurable dreams about eating mean you are happy in a real life relationship. If you dream about stuffing yourself or feeling sick when eating, you are feeling nervous or guilty about a friendship situation. To dream of eating alone means you're feeling sad. To dream that you are watching others eat, means you feel left out of "the banquet of life" - you need more fulfillment, love and friendship in your waking life.
To dream that you are standing in line, indicates your need for patience. You should be prepared to wait for something and not have it right away.
To dream that you are standing alone, or feeling scared of being alone, symbolizes temporary and fleeting worries that will soon pass. You may feel that you don't have a lot of support from friends and family when you have to go through a problem situation.
To dream that you hit something or someone, is symbolic of unexpressed anger and aggression. You tend to keep your negative feelings inside instead of expressing them in a healthy way.
interesing.........
dream i had last night
lemme write this down before i forget it. it's a dream i had a few mins ago..
lets see, i goto a church, a rather larger one, they having a huge lunch, everyone stands in line, walks down the lenght of tables (prob 200 or more feet of tables) circle around, then start loading your plate up. some indi guy impressed everyone by eating like a plate of mac & cheese in just a few seconds, there is a huge potluck of people, races and ages. tho, even tho there are all these ppl, i still feel all alone. nobody says hi. nobody says glad you're here. wait, gene from work was there, wearing a manson pair of pants. but he never says anything. the toilet was a child's potty chair behind a set of chairs, not even enclosed. and it had like 4-5 crackers in it. so i didn't use it. i needed something to drink, so i drove next door to the BP and bought some random drink. the Aupu was driving some dark green like nissan or acura or something. i went back and went through the line again, this time it was moving faster.
gd it, i had another dream, i've done forgot it :(
oh wait! here it is: i'm at someone's house, i dunno. it's a female's house, and she was kinda big girl. for some reason i'm all over her mother :o well, actually her mom was all over me. we were playfully acting like we were hitting each other, then i actually smacked her in the forhead with a golf club :) she's hurting, i feel bad, then next think i know she's grinding on top of me (both of us are still fully clothed, tho) and then i wake up.
interesting. common theme w/ the 2 dreams? i'm alone and i hurt ppl :( what a way to start a day.
lets see, i goto a church, a rather larger one, they having a huge lunch, everyone stands in line, walks down the lenght of tables (prob 200 or more feet of tables) circle around, then start loading your plate up. some indi guy impressed everyone by eating like a plate of mac & cheese in just a few seconds, there is a huge potluck of people, races and ages. tho, even tho there are all these ppl, i still feel all alone. nobody says hi. nobody says glad you're here. wait, gene from work was there, wearing a manson pair of pants. but he never says anything. the toilet was a child's potty chair behind a set of chairs, not even enclosed. and it had like 4-5 crackers in it. so i didn't use it. i needed something to drink, so i drove next door to the BP and bought some random drink. the Aupu was driving some dark green like nissan or acura or something. i went back and went through the line again, this time it was moving faster.
gd it, i had another dream, i've done forgot it :(
oh wait! here it is: i'm at someone's house, i dunno. it's a female's house, and she was kinda big girl. for some reason i'm all over her mother :o well, actually her mom was all over me. we were playfully acting like we were hitting each other, then i actually smacked her in the forhead with a golf club :) she's hurting, i feel bad, then next think i know she's grinding on top of me (both of us are still fully clothed, tho) and then i wake up.
interesting. common theme w/ the 2 dreams? i'm alone and i hurt ppl :( what a way to start a day.
Friday, July 15, 2005
Name that cut of meat!
Contest: name that cut of meat!
winner wins: food - if you're lucky
Cut #1:
Cut #2:
Cut #3:
Cut #4:
Cut #5:
ok, i ate 2 of those #4's today - good. and #3 is hamburger patties. but what is the rest? i think #5 is sirloin, but i thought i only got 1 sirlon steak, so, is 3 of those a different cut? :(
winner wins: food - if you're lucky
Cut #1:
Cut #2:
Cut #3:
Cut #4:
Cut #5:
ok, i ate 2 of those #4's today - good. and #3 is hamburger patties. but what is the rest? i think #5 is sirloin, but i thought i only got 1 sirlon steak, so, is 3 of those a different cut? :(
hrm, said i should post but went to bed early...
i talked to annie last night. it was interesting... i asked how things were with her and dallas. she replyed "he can rot in hell i do'nt care" come to find out, he was spending all his time with his friend scottie. whenever they were to go out on a date, they'd, well, go hang out at scottie's :P then one day he says "leave me the fuck alone" so she did. it was funny. then she asked how me and crystal was. i kinda enjoyed saying "doing pretty well." oh, brad just said "that's strange, annie was hanging all over dallas last night at sonic when i saw them..." strange....
right now i'm eating some of that $57 worth of beef i bought. so far pretty good. i was worried when my knife didn't wanna saw through the raw meat, but cooked, it turned out better.
lately i've been trying to relate events or things i see to situations, but i can't lol. like, a few months back, chris posted about seeing a girl and a boy, playing on opposite sides of the road, the boy being a boy and the girl being a girl, both different but wanting to be together (or something, he deleted the post, so i may never remember). well, like i saw a bird (i think some kind of huge hawk) being chased by a sparrow sized bird, and i'm like "heh, that's like......" but then i had no story :P i dunno
also i've noticed in the past few days i've been trying to look into the deeper meaning of stuff... i dunno why. or i've noticed things i haven't seen before (like a helluva lotta lawn care buisnesses)
i hooked up my aunt's dsl at her buisness last night. we gonna horse trade: me buy a UPS (and a USB flash drive) for her and she'll get me a blower :) BG-65 looks and sounds sweet, it's supposed to be alot more powerful than the BG-55 so i dunno. aah, i just looked at the website:
nice so i shall see how it turns out :)
i finished paying off the washer and dryer as of... 3 days ago. IF I WAS SMART.... i'd take that money that i haven't been "needing" and save it for a down payment for a new car... but i doubt i'm that smart...
woah i didn't think i'd be here tonight, i think i was supposed to help a lady at my church with consulting or something... hrm...
heh my water bill was $-3.30 :P i kinda overpaid the last time (on purpose) but my electricity was $167 :(
it was amazing, LFD at work was talking about renting a 1 bedroom apartment for like $450/m, or the house they renting now is like $650/m or something, and it's upstairs only (downstairs would be like another $450/m) and i'm like :o lol. my mortage shouldn't be over $700/m yet (i hope, it WAS $625 or so...) so it's amazing. renting really is a huge rip.
oh, the cat was sooo funny earlier, i was laying across chris's bed (i had just gotton home like 10 mins earlier) and my head was basically pointed towards his tv. i said "hey chris, where's the cat?" and no sooner had i said "cat" did that damn cat LEAP out from behind the DVD's and run under the bed! i'm like "LOLOMGWTFBBQ!" :P
hrm, what else... crystal's been in a really good mood for nearly a week, i'm happy to see that. whenever she's not happy it makes me feel like i'm doing something wrong :(
the grass looks greener, i think. i need to cut it. soon. but sooner than that i HAVE TO CHANGE MY OIL i'm like 2500 miles over, i think, if not more :(
mom emailed me today. said her and dad are going to some retreat thingy in the mountains for the weekend. they don't go anywhere on their own, this is a 4-H thing, that's why they're going...
this cat's fun again. it was sitting beside the empty clothes basket, so i thew a bottlecap inside the basket, now it's trying like hell to get it :P i so mean, but it's fun :)
hmmm... i think i was thinking of more stuff earlier today, but of course now i forget. i guess i'll have to post later :P g'bye
i talked to annie last night. it was interesting... i asked how things were with her and dallas. she replyed "he can rot in hell i do'nt care" come to find out, he was spending all his time with his friend scottie. whenever they were to go out on a date, they'd, well, go hang out at scottie's :P then one day he says "leave me the fuck alone" so she did. it was funny. then she asked how me and crystal was. i kinda enjoyed saying "doing pretty well." oh, brad just said "that's strange, annie was hanging all over dallas last night at sonic when i saw them..." strange....
right now i'm eating some of that $57 worth of beef i bought. so far pretty good. i was worried when my knife didn't wanna saw through the raw meat, but cooked, it turned out better.
lately i've been trying to relate events or things i see to situations, but i can't lol. like, a few months back, chris posted about seeing a girl and a boy, playing on opposite sides of the road, the boy being a boy and the girl being a girl, both different but wanting to be together (or something, he deleted the post, so i may never remember). well, like i saw a bird (i think some kind of huge hawk) being chased by a sparrow sized bird, and i'm like "heh, that's like......" but then i had no story :P i dunno
also i've noticed in the past few days i've been trying to look into the deeper meaning of stuff... i dunno why. or i've noticed things i haven't seen before (like a helluva lotta lawn care buisnesses)
i hooked up my aunt's dsl at her buisness last night. we gonna horse trade: me buy a UPS (and a USB flash drive) for her and she'll get me a blower :) BG-65 looks and sounds sweet, it's supposed to be alot more powerful than the BG-55 so i dunno. aah, i just looked at the website:
- BG-65
- AIR VELOCITY (174 mph)
- AIR VOLUME (430 cfm)
- BG-55
- AIR VELOCITY (140 mph)
- AIR VOLUME (430 cfm)
nice so i shall see how it turns out :)
i finished paying off the washer and dryer as of... 3 days ago. IF I WAS SMART.... i'd take that money that i haven't been "needing" and save it for a down payment for a new car... but i doubt i'm that smart...
woah i didn't think i'd be here tonight, i think i was supposed to help a lady at my church with consulting or something... hrm...
heh my water bill was $-3.30 :P i kinda overpaid the last time (on purpose) but my electricity was $167 :(
it was amazing, LFD at work was talking about renting a 1 bedroom apartment for like $450/m, or the house they renting now is like $650/m or something, and it's upstairs only (downstairs would be like another $450/m) and i'm like :o lol. my mortage shouldn't be over $700/m yet (i hope, it WAS $625 or so...) so it's amazing. renting really is a huge rip.
oh, the cat was sooo funny earlier, i was laying across chris's bed (i had just gotton home like 10 mins earlier) and my head was basically pointed towards his tv. i said "hey chris, where's the cat?" and no sooner had i said "cat" did that damn cat LEAP out from behind the DVD's and run under the bed! i'm like "LOLOMGWTFBBQ!" :P
hrm, what else... crystal's been in a really good mood for nearly a week, i'm happy to see that. whenever she's not happy it makes me feel like i'm doing something wrong :(
the grass looks greener, i think. i need to cut it. soon. but sooner than that i HAVE TO CHANGE MY OIL i'm like 2500 miles over, i think, if not more :(
mom emailed me today. said her and dad are going to some retreat thingy in the mountains for the weekend. they don't go anywhere on their own, this is a 4-H thing, that's why they're going...
this cat's fun again. it was sitting beside the empty clothes basket, so i thew a bottlecap inside the basket, now it's trying like hell to get it :P i so mean, but it's fun :)
hmmm... i think i was thinking of more stuff earlier today, but of course now i forget. i guess i'll have to post later :P g'bye
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
damn chirs, i get home and i'm still amazed with the kitchen and living room :)
these frozen strawberries are goood :)
i saw crystal today :) i was happy :) i got home and read her journal and she's really upset about something :( i really don't understand it, it really doesn't make sense to me :-
me and brad when car shopping :) the dood at carmax was a duuumass! lol like brad says "we looking for something fun to drive" he says "so what you looking for?" brad goes "you know, a sports car" and he asks again "so what do you want to look at?" then goes on to "this is how carmax works, da da da, as you can see here, this car was damaged and then brad's like "look, nevermind, we're goign to just wander aroudn, if we see something we like we'll come back and get you." it was funny :) i managed to set a car alarm off, but their selection kinda sucked. tho (chris) i did see some mustang GT's for like $13.8k and up :P
i got my "diet" at kroger on teh way home - pop tarts, ham, cheese sticks(well, that's for the ride home), and frozen mac & cheese lol :)
i nuked some spagetti - i think i'll go eat it. :)
have you noticed i've used alot of :) 's today? :)
this morn i woke up at 8:58 (i'm supposed to be at work at 9) so yea i was kinda late. then my last call was in lithonia at 6:35 so i called back and said "it'll take me at least 15 mins to get back to work and i'm really not going to get anythign done, so i'm leaving from here" so i did. brad even said "damn, get here 20 mins late, leave 20 mins early, what a life" i know right :P i only did like 2.5 svc calls, but the 2 of them took waay longer than expected. (the .5 was a work in, easy call) but none the less i got 5-5.5 billable hours :) speaking of billing i am WAY behind on that shit.... boss is gonna kill me :( oh well, maybe he'll fire me :) then i get to sell cars! LOL
ok i'm eating my spagetti then i'll eat some more strawberries and drink my coke. g'night :)
these frozen strawberries are goood :)
i saw crystal today :) i was happy :) i got home and read her journal and she's really upset about something :( i really don't understand it, it really doesn't make sense to me :-
me and brad when car shopping :) the dood at carmax was a duuumass! lol like brad says "we looking for something fun to drive" he says "so what you looking for?" brad goes "you know, a sports car" and he asks again "so what do you want to look at?" then goes on to "this is how carmax works, da da da, as you can see here, this car was damaged and then brad's like "look, nevermind, we're goign to just wander aroudn, if we see something we like we'll come back and get you." it was funny :) i managed to set a car alarm off, but their selection kinda sucked. tho (chris) i did see some mustang GT's for like $13.8k and up :P
i got my "diet" at kroger on teh way home - pop tarts, ham, cheese sticks(well, that's for the ride home), and frozen mac & cheese lol :)
i nuked some spagetti - i think i'll go eat it. :)
have you noticed i've used alot of :) 's today? :)
this morn i woke up at 8:58 (i'm supposed to be at work at 9) so yea i was kinda late. then my last call was in lithonia at 6:35 so i called back and said "it'll take me at least 15 mins to get back to work and i'm really not going to get anythign done, so i'm leaving from here" so i did. brad even said "damn, get here 20 mins late, leave 20 mins early, what a life" i know right :P i only did like 2.5 svc calls, but the 2 of them took waay longer than expected. (the .5 was a work in, easy call) but none the less i got 5-5.5 billable hours :) speaking of billing i am WAY behind on that shit.... boss is gonna kill me :( oh well, maybe he'll fire me :) then i get to sell cars! LOL
ok i'm eating my spagetti then i'll eat some more strawberries and drink my coke. g'night :)
well, lets see how this works (post via email)
yet another idea. i was too lazy to read wether or not i had posted this or not, so i will again anyways:
car salesman. at least at conyers nissan. on a new car they make at least $125. on a used car over 45 days they make like $1000. 10 car min they must sell a month. and most places you get paid like $8/h. say i sell 10 new cars and "only" make $1250, and 40 hour weeks, that's approx $1280 a month. total per month: $2530 x12 months = $30360 MORE THAT MY CURRENT FUCKING SALARY. :(
PLUS then i can have more time to do websites, lets say i only do 1 a week. add $200 /month. that's $32760 a year. gd it.
yet, the dealership guy said that his first year (12 yrs ago) was his worst, and he only made $50k. didn't cars back then cost like $8k? now equiv cars cost like $18k? He's got to be rolling in some massive dough. and i think i may pay him a visit, turn in a resume.....
Monday, July 11, 2005
well gd chris, you said you were gonna clean up, i dind't know you were gonna like remove 9 months of wear and tear :P the kitchen and living room look brand fucking new! i owe ya big time
i lost my spare key to my truck. i went to show someone and, well, it's not there... but i remember seeing it a few days ago in my wallet, so, dunno where it went.
today was really really good. i talked to crystal like 5 times throughout the day, it really made my day that much better. well, it was an average day til she put it over the top like that. :) thank you baby
went to best buy for a few mins, then up to fry's. it was cool/ok. didn't buy a thing, so that was better. i still want a palm piolt. and their mobo's were like $60 so i guess i'll buy one online.
after fry's we went to steak and shake. got me a large cheese frys and sweet tea. twas good, tho i should have gotton a regular - it about made me sick :-\ there was this super ditzy girl at the table behind us, all of the sudden we hear really clearly (me brad and lfd) "i don't offer goods, i offer services" lfd was like 'wtf' i (thankfully had my back turned) and quietly snickered, and brad, heh, well, his back was also turned, but he choked over his milkshake and laughed really damn loud :D
fate strikes again. i can't tell you how many times this has happend, but whoever i'm with (it happens with everyone i'm with) is having a moderatly good to great day, and someone comes along and it seems to be #1 on their agenda for the day to ruin their day. i fucking hate that! it has happend way to many gd times. and normaly it's over supid shit like "yea, while you were gone all day nobody was here to do the dishes, so you need to get your ass in there and clean up blah blah blah" some bullshit like that. i fucking hate that. honestly if everyone were to just mind their own damn buisness, pick up after themselves and TALK not BITCH then this world would be alot happier of a place. i guess this is one reason why i've built up quite a "i just don't give a fuck" attitude.
i just got lost. i had a few more things else to say, but i lost em all. it was brought to my attention that i always post what makes me mad, but never what makes me happy. i never had noticed it before, but it's true. so lets see if i sum up a short list:
the first 2 are hobbies, the 2nd two bring true happieness. and everythign related to those are included too (cuddling, kissing, hugging, etc). to pretty much sum up everthing, this is what makes me happy. the shortterm and longterm happiness.
yea, i should add more to the list but not tonight. oh new schedule: looks like i'm helping my aunt tommorrow (tues) and then from there i don't know what i'm doing. :(
i lost my spare key to my truck. i went to show someone and, well, it's not there... but i remember seeing it a few days ago in my wallet, so, dunno where it went.
today was really really good. i talked to crystal like 5 times throughout the day, it really made my day that much better. well, it was an average day til she put it over the top like that. :) thank you baby
went to best buy for a few mins, then up to fry's. it was cool/ok. didn't buy a thing, so that was better. i still want a palm piolt. and their mobo's were like $60 so i guess i'll buy one online.
after fry's we went to steak and shake. got me a large cheese frys and sweet tea. twas good, tho i should have gotton a regular - it about made me sick :-\ there was this super ditzy girl at the table behind us, all of the sudden we hear really clearly (me brad and lfd) "i don't offer goods, i offer services" lfd was like 'wtf' i (thankfully had my back turned) and quietly snickered, and brad, heh, well, his back was also turned, but he choked over his milkshake and laughed really damn loud :D
fate strikes again. i can't tell you how many times this has happend, but whoever i'm with (it happens with everyone i'm with) is having a moderatly good to great day, and someone comes along and it seems to be #1 on their agenda for the day to ruin their day. i fucking hate that! it has happend way to many gd times. and normaly it's over supid shit like "yea, while you were gone all day nobody was here to do the dishes, so you need to get your ass in there and clean up blah blah blah" some bullshit like that. i fucking hate that. honestly if everyone were to just mind their own damn buisness, pick up after themselves and TALK not BITCH then this world would be alot happier of a place. i guess this is one reason why i've built up quite a "i just don't give a fuck" attitude.
i just got lost. i had a few more things else to say, but i lost em all. it was brought to my attention that i always post what makes me mad, but never what makes me happy. i never had noticed it before, but it's true. so lets see if i sum up a short list:
- playing PC games
- photography
- loving
- being loved
the first 2 are hobbies, the 2nd two bring true happieness. and everythign related to those are included too (cuddling, kissing, hugging, etc). to pretty much sum up everthing, this is what makes me happy. the shortterm and longterm happiness.
yea, i should add more to the list but not tonight. oh new schedule: looks like i'm helping my aunt tommorrow (tues) and then from there i don't know what i'm doing. :(
- jr wants me to goto the club with him maybe tuesday i think
- my aunt wants me to help her setup dsl monday (or this week)
- this guy wants to hire me to do pc work this weekend
- a lady from my church wants me to do some consulting end of this week
- i want to see crystal as much as possible
- i did want to goto frys but not anymore
- i need to work on my dad's truck on some weekends if i'm going to get it
- i need to keep this website job idea rolling
- my house is a wreck - it needs major cleaning
- my pc needs to be reloaded after i burn a shitload of dvds
- i need to goto work right now...
i got too much going on.....
Sunday, July 10, 2005
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