holy shit. had i finished that margarita then i wouldn't have been able to find my truck, much less drive home - thankfully i only had half - so i could find the truck. and yes, i made it home :P

omg this morn i woke up in such a horrible mood. money problems are the worst :( i was leaving myself voice memos, because i wanted to say shit and i knew i'd forget it. basically i said:

• work sucks
  
• we're short handed at work
  
• jr is doing all the repairs in shop
  
• brad and horace are on vacation
  
• gene and LFD doesn't really work on repairs
  
• jr actually got $0 billed yesterday
  
• i got billing and svc calls to do plus more
  
• i saw a bmw on the way to work. i almost swerved out in front of the next vechical i was so mad that i'm basically told "you can't have one"
  
• i have GOT to find somethign to calm me down this morning (i later deduced i needed to get drunk - whoops?) :P
  
• traffic is killing me - stuipd drivers
  
• i'm driving beside this jeep w/ a ladder on top (just like my exploer was this morn) and this pos sounded like it was barely running... i'm afraid mine will turn to this if i stay at this "bitch of a job" - i hate it
  
• i'm going balastic
  
• i'm looking at getting a 2nd job
  
• last time i looked for a 2nd job annie talked me out of it cause i'd have no time to spend with her
  
• now, nobody wants to spend time with me during the week, so what does it really matter?
  
• I'm a month and 3 weeks behind on billing
  
• the boss didn't bitch at me for being over a month behind, but did state that we got to find something better that works
  

but yea few things have changed since this morning...

last call of the day was barry dendy. god, barry dendy. he's the guy i talked about earlier that said "if you work for me and don't make at least $60,000 your first year, i'll pay you the difference. today, i had over 4 ppl say i'd do great selling life insurance. i found out: take 40 hours of classes (2 weekends) and pass a test to get my life insurance license. then it's smooth sailing :P one girl is in her 4th month of selling insurance, and has already pocketed $25,000.... (remember my YEARLY salary for working 50h a week is $27,000) looks like i know what i'm doing. oh, btw, this is 15-25h a week. lining up like 5 clients a week, spending a few hours with each in the evenings. omfg. you have to be kidding me.

again, i ask for all of ya'll's help.

PLEASE do whatever the fuck it takes to make me (it won't be against my will) but MAKE ME take these fucking classes and change gd jobs!

i heard from brad at like 9 p.m. said they're waiting for a wrecker - his buddy's 944 isn't in good shape i heard.

i told crystal i'd like to see her, but that i didn't know what i'd be doing. she msgs me at 9 p.m. and asked "so i guess i'm not seeing you?" i'm like "gd. FUUUCK!" (i didn't say that to her then) i didn't think that i'd actually get to see her - looks like i might have been wrong. i'm sorry :(

which kinda leads me to my next question. crystal: do i really make you happy? i feel like i don't - that, i don't know, that, there's this just big huge flaw that you're intentionally overlooking for to make me happy. if that is the case, then please, let me know - i won't be happy unless you're happy. you've pretty much seen the way i am, i don't see myself changing.

oh that reminds me :) we were talking earlier, and i said to her "all movies needed to be like 25 mins long - if they cost like $2 then you could goto the moves and watch like 4-5 movies, and since they were cheaper and shorter, more ppl would come to watch, which meant more popcorn and cokes and shit, so it's a win win situation - if i a movie's boring, you're not stuck forever. it costs less to goto the movies. the theatre makes more money... what's not to like? :D

hrm... welp i think i may goto bed - gettin' tired... last night worked til 7:45, tonight 9:20ish (i ate food and drank some during that time too) STILL 7 svc calls tommorow, now 8 (i get to go back to barry - failing hard drive?) :( so it's gonna be hell. i'm not looking foward to it. i ought to screw everyone over and call in sick :) heh heh heh...... oh well g'night