gah.

today. i started to bed aroudn 2, but crystal came online and we really needed to talk, so it was good. went to bed around 4. last thing i knew was taht we were gonna spend the day together, and that she had plans with somebody else too, but prob that night. ok. she was gonna call me when she gets up. i get up, take my shower, etc. didn't want to go too far, didn't want to do too much, didn't want to miss her call, i was really looking foward to spending time with her. 4:30 rolls around. she gets online. "can i come over now?" "not now i just woke up." ok. 5:30 "i'll call you when i'm ready for you to come over." ok. i'm bored off my ass, so around 6:15 i start just driving around (i kinda wanted to see how much differently everything drove with the new shocks.) i send a message at 7, still not ready. i'm still just wandering around. i wander over to subway just down the road and eat my normal 12" sub with ham and cheese and lettus and pickles. finish it and i get a message "i don't want to go anywhere, come over here and hang?" i'm like "even better." i ask when to come, she first says now, then says "i'll call you and tell you when." so i goto brusters and get a chocolate chip cookie dough blast. i'm thinking "any min now..." i walk around and take pics of some flowers and a cat, kill 45 more mins. lil after 7:45 now i start driving around some more. i take pics of the train that i got stopped by. i drive by amy's house, and i actually meet her on the road directly in front of her house. she first asked why i didn't stop, then said that the house and her mother wasn't approporiate (or something like that i forget the word.) so i say ok and continue to drive. i drive around some more, and finally head home. i get home around 8:30 or 8:45 or so. now i'm just venting. i've yet to get a message. i've yet to get a call. i had other places i wouldn't have minded goign but i really wanted to see her. i REALLY wanted to see her. i didn't have to, i jsut wanted to. crystal, if you didn't want to see me, or had other plans or whatever the case, why didn't you just say so? instead i wasted the whole day waiting around for you, wanting and trying to give you every bit of attention you deserve, and i'm almost totally blown off.

i'm sorry. just give me til the morning and i'll be better. right now i gotta do something. i think i may go wash my truck or something. i gotta do something.