i am sooooo sad.. im' just a sad person. nobody wants me. i had 2 suspicions today, 1 proved to suposevly be untrue, the other still holds true. here it is:
x and y are friends. i've talked online to x. me and x are birds of 2 way different feathers. i basically repulse x. tho the way i talk x can't just say "go away" - x knows they are suposed to not liek me, but, i can't give x a reason not to. i haven't talked to x in days now. i'm pretty sure x has added me to their block list. i only assumed i was talked about to y and i was put on y's block list too. tho i just got a message from y, so aparantly not. who knows :(

i STILL haven't talked about the jekyll trip. sad.

i've eaten almost $5 worth of string cheese since about wednesday :) or is that a :( eh who knows.

jon was over this weekend. that was fun. i picked him up last night. came over, had some drinks. it was fun. i got nothing accomplished since yesterday evening. but oh well. i was in good company.

i'm debating on driving to NC next weekend... this chick i know lives somewhere in NC i think near the SC border.... heh. i talked to her some last night in my "estranged" state of mind. she said she coming to atlanta in like january, i dunno why. hopefully i'll get to see her, maybe show her around this lonely and desolate place we call "georgia" :(

never have i felt so alone :( when i had never felt love before alone was a normal feeling. after having a taste of love, i yearn for that feeling again. i miss that feeling. i want it again. i NEED it again. i don't know where to look. i dont' want to look - i want to still have it. everytime i see her sweet face, my heart sinks. she knows me in and out, i have no secrets from her. i miss her :(

hahahaha looks like i might be goin to NC this weekend :P 4h drive, 270m if i get 40mpg avg 70mph and gas is $3.30/g then it should cost ~$40 round trip..... lets see what the weather is gonna do :o

ok enuf for now. i feel better. talking to someone online. w00t! g'ngihty :)